Bye.

Keep spending most our lives living in the gangster's paradise.


Um.
Yes.
I haven't posted since like July.
Right.
I dunno.
This blog used to be a sanctuary.
My little Dyz-topia of blurted observations and things that pissed me off...

But I find myself to be wandering in a perpetual state of blindness where my mere observations that create those awkward silences are beginning to retreat to the furtherest corners of my mind and I don't feel the urge to yell them out anymore. Of course, when I do speak it isn't thought through and that what makes me me :)

And repeatedly taking things out of context...

But I just don't feel like doing it anymore.
I don't feel like myself.


And with that last bit of depreciation of mind, I withdraw from this attachment of my soul and stop electronically 'penning' my unfiltered, unrefined, similtaneously selfish and yet so totally unselfish thoughts and give you the peace of mind and restored level of sanity you once had before you mindlessly clicked a link to this piece of crap.


Moral: Yer, next time you click a link, think very hard about how many brain cells you have, how high your IQ is and how little you care about other peoples issues. If you would like to keep those many brain cells, not have your IQ drop with every word and are quite as self-absorbed as myself to care very little, if not at all, for others, then consider NOT clicking the link.

Or you will just end up here...yet again.

And the Lord knows that nobody wants yet another one of these! :S



And so I say



PEACE OUT!

for the last time.



Maybe this may have random bits of info that I decide to write, but it would nver be as active as it was many months ago.



-dyz_./



Hey you! Yer you.

I love you <3

'How can a fistfight be romantic?'

'How can a fistfight be romantic?'
Okay well.
The Used OBVS have never seen 'Fight Club'.


I know I don't exactly post as regularly as I used to and all my posts seem like general observations that you would expect me to just blurt out anyway.

But this blog now has its pravacy impaired.
And people that I don't want reading how the cogs in my head work can access it a lot easier now.

Secondly...
I don't actually rant that much anymore.
I am going through a grace period in which I would much rather voice my concerns to a dear friend rather than bottle it up and barf it in words onto this magical page.

I have also seen Dark Knight.
TEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEEHHEHEHEHEHHEEEEEE
Awww Two-face.
Can't believe they killllled him off.
And they got his story wrong.
But he looks way awesomer than I thought he would look.

Wonder how many packets of cards they raided for the jokers.
Hahah

And that guy who plays Mayor Garcia.
He looooookkkkssssss so much like Adam Levine from Maroon5.
Well in a more freaky Cuban way.

So I was watching Joan of Arcadia...again.
Season one...
Nobody even watches it.
Ugh.

I need to buy a formal shirt.
Ugh.

Meh.
Whatevs.
Totally avoiding stuff that is affecting me more than JoA and Maroon5.
[Batman totally affects me...just not in the way I mean]

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

'Cos I'll Miss You When You're Gone'

Know that last nights/this mornings discussion has really opened my eyes to something that I didn't really want to see.
But I am glad I said it.
I'm glad someone knows how I feel.
And if getting everything I really desired meant I wouldn't have to hurt anybody then I'd definitely continue in my hopeful world of make believe.
But it would hurt others and me too.

Dana, why is this the question that must pop up from all of this?

During this time of utter inner turmoil, I have developed this fascination with 'Silver Coins' by Angus and Julia Stone.
Its so pretty but its really sad.
You can hear the tears in his voice.
*nods*

BTW.
Deeh, how hilarious was that video?
I reckon it pwns all of them.
*nods*

PEACE OUT !
- dyz-kun

PS.
SIX DAYS TIL BATMAN
OFFICIALLY VERY EXCITED

'I'd Fight Gandhi"

Well.

Did anyone miss me?
Yer I wouldn't either.

So yer.
I dunno.

I am in a missing mood.
I miss everyone and everything.

And I totally feel like sushi at the moment.

Soooo, this new D.T teacher treally annoys me.
While it as fun having that lovely little chat to her in the library, I totally got hardly anything done.

I watched Fight Club again.
Hahhahaa, Oh Edward Norton.
<3.

This feels like an awkward conversation to myself.
So...
Hey lets do tat thing where I sing random lyrics and you get disgusted...
Ready?

now im of consenting age to be forgetting you in a caberet
Ewwww, P!ATD

Hahah.
I dunno.
I'm alive
and Batman is closer.

PEACEOUT !
-dyz_./

[ drowning lessons. ]

I have fallen back into the depths of disaster with nothing to cling to, to grab, to pull myself back up...



School so totally sucks at the moment, with the exception of English [as usual], Photography [also as usual] and a new comer of Modern.

Modern because we are finally doing the Romanovs.

FINALLY.

I had pined for this topic for ages.

PINING !



Yer I don't treally know what to write.

Cos I'm not all that happy at the moment.



By the way.

Whats the point of a fucking marriage if all you wanna do is leave that person?

Do people even stay together any more?

I'm losing my faith in people all over again.



Yer Deeh.

I'm cynical because people suck.

And you know it.



PEACE OUT, HOMIES.

Post when I can be bothered.

-dyz_./

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Damn...
I think I failed English.
Mega hard.

But damn Dana man....
He smells soooo good.

Oh fuck.
I treally must find out what it is and buy it.
ROFL.

Ahhhh I smell it in my hair.
Stupid tutoring.

I'm hungry.
I like this going home after exam thing.
Why don't we do that more often?
Minus the exams.

Ehhhhhh.
I have to 'study' for Maths.

FAIL !

suspension

i met jess today
the one whose shift i covered.
man what a douche.
oh well she is new after all.

ahh val.
so glad she didnt see me.
fucking freaky lady.

ive eaten about 5 tictacs today
like whole packets.

i really wanted to cry so fucking much today but i went for a long walk to blacktown which sort of made me feel better.
and despite that i am having such a shit time, when it started to pour rain while i was walking (i had am umbrella just in case) i could not stop smiling.
it was that smile like 'im such a douche'.
the happiest part of my day was walking in the rain with wet jeans and chucks, freezing and realising how shit my life is at the moment and not caring just for a few minutes.

peaceout !
-dyz_./

despite the hate in this blog, i love the state library.

I hate this place.

I detest this place so much I just want to take each individual part that forms it and rip it to tiny shreds.

I hate being put here.

I hate that I am stuck here.

I hate that I have a brother who seems to kick my fucking arse at every shitty thing.
I hate that he seems to think we are a competitive family.
I hate that I really know we are.
I hate that hes better than me at everything and it must be fucking amazing because he has six legs to rub step on my face while he doing it.

I hate that everyone uses me as a freaking cat scratch pole.
Scratching just to see who can rip me up first.
As much as I want to do a degree that make me the fucking tissues in a situation of distress or the stress ball when someone is feeling angry, I do not want to be that yet.

Yer, I love helping people.
But who in the fucking world helps me?
Do you?

I've been crying quite a fucking loat lately.
Nights of awesome days sink under empty tissue boxes.
I hate crying.
I hated it then and I hate it now.

But its a better way to let petty feelings...

I can't do my weekly walks anymore.
I hate having no time to think.

I hate when people make me worry about shit I don't really need to.
Do you fucking think I need anymore problems to weigh me down?

Try living in my house where all I get is shit from the Parental Units and a brother who seems like God's miracle to the fucking world.

People suck.
I lost most of my faith in people quite a while ago.

The whole Mikkey and Andii thing was fucked.
Fucking fucked from the fucking beginning.

I don't really care much for anything anymore.
I can't write, I don't read as much as I used to, I can't draw and I don't dA.
FUCKING PIECE OF USELESS SHIT.

Yer.
Don't expect to hear much of me for a few days.
I'll just be lying home in bed, staring at my ceiling, finding new ways to get grounded so I don't have to lie to you and tell you that I just don't wanna see you.

Hey I better go.
Or I won't wake up tomorrow in time for work.

Truth be told.
Right now, I don't feel like waking up.

You know, I really could have used two of the most important people to me tonight.
But it seems that everyone is enjoying life.

God, I hope Dana doesn't read this.

I fucking love you Dana.
Don't read this until after your birthday.
I don't to be like Harriet and upstage you or anything.

FUCK !
Just fuck.

Yer.
I don't think you'll see writing in my blog for days unless something just happens that I need to let out.
God knows I don't talk to people about this shit.
Whats the point of getting them down too?

Peace out.
- Dyanne.

by the way.
to someone i wont mention
go get fucked.
im sick of your fucking shit
omfg wah wah wah
go fucking bother someone else.

Gangsters Paradise.

'Liebe'.
I won't lost this one !
I lost freaking last bet by accident.
Fucking Peter.
He was GOING to, so very close to asking Jilly, but I just HAD to turn around and ask Jilly something.
Gah.
I won't lost this time.
I am determined not to lose.

Wow.
In that 'Would I Lie To You' song by Charles and Eddie...
Damn his voice is like the Beegees.

Anyways.
Yer that religion thingy.
Lectio Divina...
Hahahah
"Walk through the valley of the shadow of death"
How to remember Psalm 23...

I've had Gangsters Paradise stuck in my head all weekend.
GUUHHH...

I feel semi-gangster.
Its digusting.


I feel like watching Boondocks.
Not like that will help...
Ahhhh, but I havent seen all of Season 2 yet.
And who doesn't wanna see Riley get beat up by Huey?
LOL

PEACEOUT !
-dyz_./

by the way
I AM NOT GOING OUT WITH JOSH.
ahhahha

lol. just lol.

Damn...
I can't even say it here because you guys read this.

But it is hilarious.
And I wanna see what people say.

LOL.
We're cool (:


Peace out !
-dyz_./

ps/ totally freaking sick.
like cough up a lung sick.
i need a hug but someone who can with stand a boa constrictor hug cos i need to cling to something so that "the walls stay where they are suposed to".
Dana, if you don't get that....
I'd be very ashamed
LOL
<3

falstaffsucks.

While we're in our state of rememberance of SC...
LOL

For science...omfg
That was funny as.
Lana kept drinking ittttt.
LOLOL
I could have gotten kicked out for that.
LOL

Man I'm badass.

DARNA!
One/ I didn't sabotage you.
Two/ Even if i did, like it would work smrtfgt.
Three/ It wasn't even that big a sip.
Four/ You weren't really all that sick.
Five/ Your fualt for not eating something before the consumption of disguised alcohol.
Six/ "WTF! IS THIS SOME KIND OF BLEACH SHIT?"
ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Seven/ Man you were hilarious.

Ahhhhhh....
That idiot from Marist...
Trying to collapse the table.

And the timed coughing LOLOLOLOL

Ahhhhhh our school is funny.

Good times.
I miss them...

Joel blocked me.
What nice friends I has. (:


Gahhhrr at the sheep in Photography.
Just want to shear them.
Whats with the animal thing tonight?

Wow, its only a quarter to 11.....
I'm giving up on English.

Falstaff you dispicable character.


PEACE OUT!
-dyz_./

whatevs.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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I'm so glad for the bass in my speakers.
I can feel it half way across my room.
Drowning out stupid shitty day with (Bee)n Stalking Jaque.

Dear Dana,
Get over it.
But its always nice to know that you'd prefer freaky stalking Christina over me.
Have fun.

Dear group,
Go fuck yourselves.
You're so unobservant right up until it hits breaking point.
With friends like us, why do we need the government?
We end up screwing it up by ourselves.

Dear Lorraine,
Sorry.

Political shit...joy.
You're perfect for each other Deeh.
Go have your little DBSK Babies.

Know what?
You can all get fucked.

Way to ruin one of the best days in the world.

what a feeble attempt etc.

I am sad as fuck right about now.
My best inanimate friend has died.
I was extremely close to it.
What a freak I am.
Trying to feel better.

But two things have come from today.
1/. I'm getting back into the fanfiction world because it makes me happy and I loved my fan base.
2/. Wow at this Spencer fanfic. I haven't read a good enough Spencer one, but this one totally pwns.

Also.
Pyrogue....
I'm not so bias against it anymore.
That one that I read....wow.

Oh Dana! The whole time she had her gloves on! Except after she took them off and I'm like..."THIS IS BULLLLSHHIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTT!"
It has to be believable or not done at all.
I will kill Bobby :)
But I am very very sad about killing St. John Allerdyce<3
Damn freaking X MEN!

Kudos to the writers whose stuff I read constantly :)
I will make time for this again.


OHOHOH!
Gabriel!!! LOLOL
I love his shoes.

Peace out !
-dyz_./

School sucks majorly.

Darna.
Could really have used you at school today.
Or online now.
Or later.
Ever.

I need help with English and shizzle.
And Lorraine isn't answering her phone so I'm guessing shes at work.

Wow, this sounds like something I'd type in the 'Letters to Anyone' thread.
The WAYT is full of noobs and I don't feel like I belong anymore.
All of them with their ten year old fingers typing bullshit to up their posts from 220 to 287543854.

I also miss Hyde.
She was awesome. Like my best friend on INO.
And I've lost her again.
I was the only person on INO that she told her real name to. Haha
Its Maria.
Its nice.
Well....Not like Maria Tria but yer.

I feel really sick at the moment.
I feel as bad as you looked that other night, ahah no offence.

Are you going to do what I said? Only ifhe brings it up right?
Well don't wait too long or it would make you seem even more obsessed.
I got to walk around the school with that camera today.
I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, but you know.
Religion etc.

I feel like playing that part in "I'm Not Okay" when Frank says 'Trust me' over and over.

My mom's tell me to 'sleep it off'.
Yer great advice, Mom.
I've been 'sleeping it off' for a while now. It hasn't worked.
And she says it now like as if I have the time.

Dana, please?
I really need to talk to someone.

peace out.
-dyz_./

ugh.

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FUCKERRRRRRR.
I am so sick of my mother.
First my mom tells me I don't do my work enough.
Then when I'm fucking up to my eyeballs in work and ploughing through it, she gets on my fucking back.
"Oh I shouldn't have let you get that laptop! All you do is talk to your friends"

Hey newflash motherfucker.
Just because I'm doing more work and spending more time to TRY and fucking get a good grade theres no need for you to get all up in my grillz.
fuckyou.

God,
Honestly cannot think of a reason why I need you.
If you get taken away by the mysterious power of the world, yer I'll feel bad, but when it comes down to it, I didnt need you as much as you think.

whatevs
peace out
hope you love your mother more than i love mine.
-dyz_./

rofl@mydadonyoutube

After the AA incident...
There really isn't all that much to say.
Deeh's freaky intuition...

Darna. [lol]
Never fear.
AA is a shallow psycho hose beast [thankgodforwaynesworld] and VS is heaps better. He is your intellectual match in every way and I KNOW how hard that is to find.

Okay so.
First of all.
THANKS DEEH. DAY 3 MY ARSE.
I thought I had English third.
It was first
I failed that so bad.
fgbhruewiokldfjnghruieowdlkfmgnjhtuiroeplkfmgjnhuireo

Second.
WTFFF?
Religion?
Hose beast.
What the hell was up with that? And shit part b
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Okay.
God my typing is like a bogans.

I swear.
If they didn't have their legion of barbies with them, I would fucking kill them for you Deeh.
Whats my safety compared to your peace of mind?
Totally would pwn them too.
Would you like me to bring my hockeystick?
I mean, its fibreglass. The blood woud just wipe off.
:)?
No?
LOL.

My dad is cool ayeeee Darna?

I wonder if Josh will put on his flashbox.
I'll let you know if he does.

PEACEOUT !
-dyz_./

heyheyheyheyhey!

I don't think I've ever been so appreciative ever.
Listening to Drowning Lessons kinda just melted everything in my body.
Oh my.

Plus, being in a car with my brother for three hours....fights will insue.
"She started it"
"HE STARTED IT!"
"SHE STARTED IT BY BEING BORN"
"YOU ASKED FOR ME! HA! SHUT UP. YOU GOT PWNED"
Needless to say, I won.

And.
[Sorry]
WHO THE FUCKING FUCK WEARS SHORTS UP ON MT. KOSCIUSKO? MENTAL EMO GUY. AND OMG. WHAT WAS WRONG WITH MY DAD. FUCKING THICK SKINNED HOBO MAN.
WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU WILLINGLY STAY IN MINUS A BILLION DEGREES ? IN A FREAKING SKI LIFT?
WHYYYY?
Okay....
I totally loved it....LOL

Now I can literally say that my head was in the clouds, because being 1900 or something metres up is kinda the cloud hangout.

I totally had something to say....but I forgot.

Other than having a cushion[of the couches....as the actual seat parts LOL] war that pwned WW2 and omg-ing at the emos a the skatepark [all lame and the only semi-pretty one was taken] and totally pwing the boat driving [yer im cool].....yer.

ROFLMAO at my brother's car game though.

People! Talk to me! Distract me from my English essay tomorrow :)

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

act one scene noone cares

Finally I have come to a conclusion about my near future and my English skills.
They are quite pathetic.
But apparently people seem to like them.
And so using Bret Easton Ellis and Sylvia Plath and their writing styles, I have decided to keep writing and maybe structuring it into some form of pathetic book.
Joy.
Its Dana and my mother's faults really.

Blame them.
Though I will ne'er want anyone to read the sodding crap that exits my brain in my form of an empty storyline that seems so cliche that even cliche is sick of it.
Okay maybe not, because I try to to eliminate cliche as best as I can.
But still.
I wonder if they deleted Ruby Rose yet.
[I just added a few hours deeh cos i went on INO]
They did delete it, so don't bother trying to look for it.
The only copy is with me :)
Safe away from freaky judging eyes.

Yer.
Man I kinda miss INO.
And my stories.
I had a fanbase.
A fanbase.
Ahhh like Deeh's Winglin days
ROFL SRRY HAD TO.

I have no plot yet and probably won't ever.
The hospital is such an awesome place for storylines though, because its so calm where I sit, allowing thought.
Until Bruno walks past and I'm all non chalant while trying to read what band shirt he has on.

For some reason, I've just been so obsessed with "Stomping feet and racing beats of hearts that don't ever slow"
Just love that line.
I dunno.

I Just got up to the Phone Call parts in the Virgin Suicides for like the miiiiillllliiiooonnnttthhhh time. I can never get sick of that.
I think its just so beautiful that just a simple phone call where hardly any words but the lyrics of songs that pass through the phone wires can connect the Lisbon sisters to the four boys.
Gorgeous descriptions <3

Sofia Coppola really did that movie justice and they are ruining Twilight.
SCHMOOOOOOOOO !

Lux Lisbon was like fourteen and she was the most promiscuous.
Hilarious.
Kirsten Dunst was ace in that role.
And Josh Hartnett fit the role of Trip ace too, but thats cos I really don't like either that much.
AHH ! Yer! I don't like Hartnett!
Booooo !
Ahh go stuff yourself.

Henry the 4th calls my dear ones.

Deeh needs coke and I need MCR.
Fuckity.
My inspiration is sooo shot.
Sodding inspiration!
By the way, I totally love 'wank of the century'...
I ono.
Another thing to say instead of worse things I can say.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

disneychannelsucks.

ohgod.
my brain is melting.
i like the jonas brothers.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its all caitlin's fault.
stupid caitlin.
stupid hannah montana.
stupid youtube.

haha Jex likes Musso now.
mitchel not mason.

gahhh.
this whole blog is dominated by the disney channel.

[explode]

ksahgdjasdtgfsdhf
im going to get jex into the jonas brothers :)
rofl
lame.

im going away for easter.
:)

forgot where though, but if it doesn't have reception dana then im very sorry.

i think its because of what they wear.
dana, think of every AA image and thats what the jonas brothers wear.

just so you can fall off your chair again...
purple flanno.

its lovely how nobody gets these.

ahh im bored.
i cant really be bothered doing my physics assignment.
i'll do it later.

i gotta go clean my room.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

whoa, how bad was my English in this one.
if the grumble and rubello read this...

self propagation.

I just bit my tongue and my mouth tastes like blood.
Awesome.
Awwww that totally reminds me.
DANA ! VAMPIRES !
I want to readdddddddddddddddddd it.
I don't care how crap you think it is.


I BAGS THE FIRST SIGNED COPY.
:)
And I bags kicking teenies =]
ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND If they make it a movie, I am so choosing the actors because casting director these days...
Gone are the days of good Sofia Coppola movies.


UGH.
Now I want to watch The Virgin Suicides for the millionth time.

[Flail]

I am so distracted.
I haven't analysed the soliloquy, I haven't progressed much in my notes, I have to catch bus on Friday [KRIS ?] and I am going to fail Physics.

Deflate.

Dana.
I wrote it.
:)
But I'm having last minute cold feet.
Well not really last minute...
Gah.

The best day of Year Ten...
Oh that cordial.
Unobservant highschool girls didn't take any notice of the bright red stripes of cordial that I accidently poured on myself.
Hilarious.
SO SHOULD HAVE YOUTUBED THAT.
rofl.
Theres no time to have any of those moments anymore.
I have 6 days to do my Physics and Photography assignments and I have to do my DT one and Religion one...
And ew at first place in my class for Maths.

Hello rubber ducky.
I love you.
[Squeak]
My brother and I pretty much morse code with the duckies.
Except we have no idea what we're saying...
I guess it translates to :
"Oi, purple monkey dishwasher"
"How dare you insult my momma ?"
"Grapefruit !"
"Did you know that I just found my sanity? Hiding under the bed along with my good friend 'the truth'...haven't seen either in a while"
"Your face"

Or something like that.
[Squeak]

Lux: the luminosity of a light source.
Lux: major character of the virgin suicides.

I got how to remember it.

ELECTROMAGNETIC WAVES, I WILL PWN YOU.
Hopefully.

Johno smells.
Stupid teacher.
"I must be your favourite male teacher on your timetable"
"Sir, you're the ONLY male teacher on my timetable"
Douche.

"Wonder if he's for sale.
I don't close my eyes.
You can disappear here without knowing it."

Oh Bret Easton Ellis.
Less than Zero > American Psycho

Oh.
I have nothing much else to write.

Oh DEEH!
PURPLE FLANNO.
[INSERT RAISING EYEBROWS EMOTICON]
Oh my, what a stunning image.
AA...

I think Ms Ruello's sole purpose is to ruin my life and explode my head with images of England as a woman.
ROFL @ her drawing of it.

Maths, Modern, DT and Photography tomorrow.
Not bad.
I hope I don't neaarly fall asleep in Modern like last time.

Meh.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

henry the fourth.

Was a pathetic sod and why Shakespeare decided to dedicate time of his glorious life to write about him will confuse me forever.

Though I must say, he speaks so wonderfully.

Gah !
When I am tired and frustrated I usually flail.
Accentuated movements that all add up to the degradation of my blrain.

[Flails arms]

LOL at Julian's comments.
Every tim he says 'Dang' I get so freaking scared...
LOL, Dana knows why.

Dana, don't say it...

Why is my laptop so freaking loud?
Damn keys.

There is nothing to write.
I think I lost my Spongebob pjs though.
[Ooooh sorry about the images]
Ah well.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

FARRRRRRRRKKKKKK

Joel, I apologize for this next part.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
FUCK SHIT MOTHERFUCKER.
fuckfuckfuckfuck
shitshitshit
sodshittingarseheadandahole.
fuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk


PHYSICS.
FUCK.
My scientific report is due tomorrow.
AHHHHHHHHHHH !
And I left my book.
Oh wank of the century.

I am composed.
Breathe.
Okay.


[EXPLETIVE !]

peaceout !
-dyz

dana. thursday. remember.

LOL @ Texting Josh in the cinemas.
Well he WAS sitting [counts...Deeh, Jason, Kevin] three seats away.
And Jason kept stealing my skittles.
But my pupils managed to dilate...
DYANNE IS A TIC TAC JUNKIE.

And this is numero three.
And the third time is a charm.
And it works.
And the guy said 'Of all the albums in this place, you picked out the best one'....
Of course I picked the best one.
AND IT WILL NOT SNAP.
I WILL NOT HAVE TO BUY A FOURTH ONE.
I hope.

I AM SO HIIIIGGGHHHH.
I ATE 15 REDSKINS.
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

omgomgomg.
chris.... [yer i know its a K Deeh, but if its a K then its not cK]
red stripey.
and car parked right behind.
i feel sick.
too many redskins and skittles and Red Court[rofl i think only deeh will get this] and Malteser[Ditto].

Hey Deeh,
Remeber in the food court?
"I BAGS MALTESER"
LOLOLOLOL

There us hardly anything to write.

Do I have homework?
[Was I going to go it anyway?]

Waynes World.....two.

I find it amazing how bipolar I must seem to people.

Lorraine made it very clear in her blunt questioning way.
Not that I mind.

I'm not bipolar...
I just can't stand stuff sometimes and the side of me that wants to yell just shuts down.

And maybe I didn't WANT to tell Misha.
And maybe I don't WANT to tell anyone.

Do I get a say in it?

Fuck.
Since when did my whole MSN list turn into my parents?

peaceoutmofos.
-dyz_./

'i'm going ot be frank'
'...okay....can i still be Garth?'

Blinded by Appendages.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !


Okay.

Let me say that in terms you may understand.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

Standing there, feet starting to conspire against me, customer staring into space with a plethora of prescription medication.

I have typed '99 enter 5.' and 'enter 5.' and 'enter 31.30 +' [the + is subtotal] so many times that I think Nancy can't think of original prices for meds.



But anyway, back to my standing...

I glare at Rebecca because I fucking hate her.

I laugh at Hayley as she tells me how she got that massve scar...[it was jumping over her fence].

I help Winnie who is so unsure about using the register...[we had to train her because shes meant to be floor staff].

I smile a Margie who gets me the ten and fives I so desperately need.

I think of Envy on the Coast as I ask a guy to 'sign right here'...[Artist and Repertoire<3]

I look bored as I grab more plastic bags and make sure I have enough paperbags.

I scare Lisa, Hayley scares me.

I gaze pleadingly at the clock which evilly beams back '11:03'
My head screams for that glorious half an hour of sushi and not having to smile so insincerely to people I don't really care about.
And just when I think I may as well shoot myself...

The big guy grants me one of those little gifts to get through the day.
Oh yer.
Chris and Keanu.
Freaking hell.
They just saunter past the same moment I look at the tissue boxes to make sure there are enough out.

If I wasn't so concerned about my laptop's wellbeing after, I would just bash my face into the keyboard.

Dana.
DID YOU HEAARRRR ?
THE BROTHERS !
The gorgeous brothers.
Now it would have been just the icing on the frick monkey cake is Adonis was there.
But we have that picture which I have yet to see.

By the way.
When are we doing that thing?
LOL
Don't worry.

My whole blog is like one big one-sided conversation to Dana.
Though I can imagine her reaction and responses.

HI JOEL !
See ?
I'm writing.
=]

Jelly visited me again !
At least she had pants on this time...
ROFL.
That so didn't sound as it was supposed to.
I meant.
No shorts and garters.
Skinny jeans and a vest.

I bought Tic Tac's :)
Because....
Well actually I dunno.
I just felt like consuming the whole thing.
I haven't yet.

I do have a personal record.
A whole pack of Tic Tac's in 5 minutes and 43 seconds.
Another whacky self-inflicted experiment.

Other than the C/K Fiasco [omg cK...dw]
Nothing really exciting happened.
I got texts.
I love texts.

SEND ME TEXTS.
I FEEL SPECIAL.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./

Keats liked his 'Odes'

" She dwells with Beauty - Beauty that must die;
And Joy, whose hand is ever at his lips
Bidding adieu; and aching Pleasure nigh,
Turning to poison while the bee-mouth sips:
Ay, in the very temple of Delight
Veil'd Melancholy has her sovran shrine,
Though seen of none save him whose strenuous tongue
Can burst Joy's grape against his palate fine;
His soul shall taste the sadness of her might,
And be among her cloudy trophies hung."
-Ode on Melancholy

Keats and his odes.

Grecian Urn is so long and excruiating but its so awesome.
Mainly because I had notes from before so I don't have to pay all my attention to 'Rubello'.
But I'm not exactly sure how to not pay attention to Miss.
She's ace brahh.

" Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown. "
-'Prufrock' T.S. Eliot

I love how Rubello reads.
When she says the ending, its so eerie and it lingers.




-
I do interrupt this weirdo poem session to tell you that the only reason I am not saying what I really feel at the moment is because there is plenty of swearing and hatred.
And yes, you may say 'Oh I'm used to it' but you guys aren't used to this.

So without further ado.
I shall leave before my brain defrags from overusage, and overheating of emotional ducts.

Deeh, I'm writing that list now.
For your listening pleasure.

A 'Peace out' I guess is in order.

By the way.
Totally fucking shitty day.
The only thing I accomplished with any degree of pride was my ability to shove a whole bunch of peanut m&m's in my mouth and still remain inconspicuous in homeroom.
I haven't talked to him in a bit and the last time I did, I wished I didn't.
Bruno walked past ONCE!
And I was too busy being in a pissed/sleepy mood and stabing my food with a plastic spoon.

He also had a Pantera shirt on and had his dreads up.
I seriously can't wait for Winter.
Cold weather <3
Bruno with dreads down and a beanie.

[Don't take this seriously, I do love you all]

Fuck you and your fucking awesome lives.

PEACE OUT !!!21#$&$*8888(
[no, thats not swearing]

-dyz_./

PS/
Dear JFK.
Haha, suck bitch. Major pwnage.
You got pwned bad by Oswald.
-dyz_./

And there she was;

Omg.
I just wrote two pages of this weird story.

And the whole time I had Chiodos in my head.



I have nothing to rant about.

Except maybe that
I didn't get to talk to him, I didn't get to see him and omgahashdahdkajhsdkahsdkjahsd

It sucks.
Majorly.

Two different people by the way.

Please act surprised. She's shaking shes shaking.


And there she was; we were infinite for a moment.

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./
Studying and shizzzz.
Tell you if something comes up.

AHHHHHHHHHH !
Deeh, was he right thereeeeeeeeeeeeee?
Ahhhhhhhh pretty boy.
Damn.
Wish I was there.
No Adonis?

Curly haiiiirrrr.

Yes. My hair is curly and I'm not immediately going to straighten it.
Half because of a reason that I will seem so damn shallow for so I won't say, and the other is because I am trying really hard to concentrate on Chemistry but I sooooo can't because of the first reason that I can't tell you so this is all just useless.

Dana is probably at church and she isn't online to talk to me about what happened at MY church.
Which is also part of the first reason.
GOOOOOOOSSSSSSHHHHHH.

I need someone to confide in.
DANA !
Stop accidently sending Rob signals and get the frick online.

Ohhhhh that was cold. I take it back.
Deeh, we have much to talk about on Wednesday. Ahh screw it, I'm ask you as soon as I talk to you.
Ahhhh frick that!
DOES CHRIS HAVE A BROTHER ?
IS HE YOUNGER ? AND IS HE THE SPY DRUMMER YOU WERE TALKNG ABOUT OR WERE YOU TALKING ABOUT WHATSHISFACE ?

Okay. I am calm.
kjsdkasjhdkjashdkjasdjkhskdjsds;djaskhgjadfgalskjdakjsgftso'dasejkl;jhgfjklrewflje

Okay. Its gone. Its out of my system.

My head really hurts.
Because of the pounding lack of sleep and orientation and balance and also because me and Jelly fully bashed into eachother last night before I gave birth to a banana and Mishafagface broke the chandelier.

Wunderbar.

I should stop posting because its totally not helping me concentrate.

Dana !?

FINE!
Everyone just leave me.

PEACE OUT LOUSY PEOPLE WIH LIVES !
-dyz_./

I DON'T EVEN LIKE THIS SONGGGGGGG !

lololololol

Misha: I look like Tom Cruise
Me: Oh my, you just insulted yourself.



LOL
Mishafagface is funny.
LOLOLOLOLOL.
Stop reading what I write, Misha.


Screw this.
LORRAINE IS OLD NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW


"Yah'll niggas are gay"

PEACE OUT !
-dyz_./